What could I possibly be stressed about, you ask? I'm living an awesome life in Europe, no job to worry about, I go out and party when I want, sleep til noon...it's great, I agree.
But that's the problem. I've got a great thing going on here, and I'm terrified about going back to Vegas. I'm worried about having no job and no money, no health insurance, no car, all of that. And that I could easily deal with-worse has happened-but my main worry is my friends.
Which may sound silly, but it's a worry. I've changed as a person over the last few months, and I'm sure some of my friends have changed since I left also. I had a dream that I went back to Vegas and went to my old job to visit the people there....but they were all too busy and didn't have time for me. That, of course, is very sad. I'm sure it won't be as drastic as that, but still. It's a concern.
I'm also worried about coming back here and getting a job and starting over again. I'm worried about making friends and reestablishing myself here. I worry about a million little things.
But...well...fuck it. I have 3 weeks left in Europe, only 1 of which is in Munich. I have a lot I want to do still, but I'll do it when I come back. And I will come back. I took a leap of faith once, I can do it again.
I just don't want to pack lol!
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